Diva has had another couple of shag fests and it wasn't a fluke. The choirs of angels have been getting a work out and for somebody who doesn't believe in god or jesus, I have been shouting their names a hell of a lot.
I need to get some advice from some young male fans, so, please feel free to put in your two bob worth.
I have gone into this encounter (not sure what else to call it) without any expectations, and not wanting to get emotionally involved. I actually haven 't allowed myself to get emotionally involved which is why I think I am so open about the choirs et al. I have been known to make a passing comment or two relating to the sex life or lack there of, but never just gone out and spread the word.
MCop used the L word at our last encounter. This was during a very nice quiet moment, which made me realise it wasn't just said in the heat of the moment or as a bit of fun. I nearly packed up my stuff and left but I though better of it. I was content, and warm, not wanting to hit the cold night/morning air. I ended up ignoring it and it wasn't mentioned again.
Then during another 'rest' period, he asked me 'if something happened to go wrong, would you get pregnant?' I said no and he said, 'I wouldn't mind if you did, in fact, I would be happy' to which I blurted out, you don't have to worry about that because I can't have kids'. Then he wanted the full detail which, after much persuading, I gave him. John Paul George and Ringo, I didn't even tell the ex why, he just knew I couldn't and all was good. I thought, well, if he can say the L word and wouldn't mind if I got pregnant then this would be a good way of seeing if he is just after a mother for his gene pool or if he did have feelings for me.
He was really lovely and all was good, but then it got me thinking....did he just want to go without the raincoat? Was this whole scenario, L word, kids thing just a way of playing me into a false sense of security? Was he screwing with my mind? Was this all planned?
I chatted to a couple of my gal pals, and the verdict is undecided. Some say that he wants family etc because of his ethnic back ground and what is expected, and he was testing the waters, and others say he is bordering on toe rag status wanting to go nude.
OK, Boys.....I need a verdict here.
I do have another date on Wednesday night which I will attend either way. All the while I am having fun and not emotionally involved, why not. But does that make me a nasty hoe slag if he wants a family and I am just wanting him as my toy???
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